It's not easy to be me.

It has been a very hard time for  me for the past few months.

Going back to the days, I would just stare into the computer screen and not doing anything, but plainly suffering sadness, disappointment, and depression. Even me myself not sure why this is happening, or maybe I already know what's the main reason, yet standing firm in denial.

Whenever I closed my eyes, tears would role down my face. The first time, I would rather be stabbed with 10 knife into my skin rather than a pierce in the heart.

I have friends all around me, yet feel empty. There's so many nice food, yet I can taste nothing.

I need to depend on myself, and no one else. Praying hard for strength, so that I fight through the hard days to come.