Guys are hopeless

Girls are complicated.

Their thoughts. Their mind. Their actions.

I'm not sure what they are thinking at most of the times. Zero knowledge.

I want to relate this post to my past experience. A bad one.

Why guys got jealous? And why some guy don't?
I was often blamed, that I'm very possesive, controlling and [hmm] over-sensitive. To be very true here, I'm uncomfortable with guys kept having 'physical contact' with girls. Mainly, because I think guys should have certain respect to the girls and respect oneself as a guy either. Somehow, I was called closed minded.

Take this scenario as an example:
During one of the days, a group of close friends are having a gathering at night. Those usual, small gathering among few close friends, for a pillow talk session. [Yeap] There were boys and girls as well. Probably around a 30minutes talk later, one of the guy started to gave massage to one of the girls. To be more specific, foot massage. And a while later, the girl lied facing down, and the guy started to massage the back.
Thoughts:
[Hmm] For those which you call yourself 'open-minded', yea, this might not seem to be anything wrong. Furthermore, the girl allowed the guy to do the massage, don't she. As yeah, I almost forgotten, they are all close friends. So, what's wrong with it?
There's no such things as I massage her as a friend. [wth] It's only what I call, taking advantage. You can go massage your sister or your mom, I do not care. But touching some other girls, is something pretty disturbing in a way. You may say, "hey, they do it in overseas.". Yea, it's overseas, its their culture, their norm. In Malaysia, we don't do that, living in Malaysia, respect girls as for what they are. [God damn it, hate those type of guys.]

To relate me in the scenario is, the girl was someone I liked before. And the guy was someone who knew me pretty well and knew I like her. And yet, doing it in front of me, is something pretty disturbing and upset me. After sharing the story here, I would like to reconsider calling myself that I am jealous, which I think again, it was just something which pissed me off.

Girls, guys know guys better. You think guys are so innocent and good that they want to massage for you? Why not massage a guy? It's just purely taking advantage.

Guys and girls do still need to keep a certain distance, and a certain degree of respect. However, it's a whole new different aspect if the girl and the guy have some sparks going on. I can't comment much on that, but yet, still need to keep a certain behaviour and not going over-doing things.

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*This is just my thoughts, my views, my believes. If any of my readers there do have any opinions, I would be glad to hear. [fug those asshole guys anyway, thinking about them, pissing me off again]

TAG

If you are tagged, answer these 14 questions.

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
hmm... its for her to find out. :p

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
feel like singing in the bathroom =.="

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
Can't remember. Erm, Yuri? Yipin? Weijia? Mel?

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
not yet. wanted to.

5.Will you ever donate blood?
Yeap, donated once. Got all dizzy, and felt like vomiting.

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
I don't believe in "best close friends" with opposite sex, there's definitely sparks, but taking a close friendship bond as an excuse to get near each other.

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
Now, yes. There's few.

8.What does your last text message say?
Johnson at my place liao. Waiting for you, ghost movie.

9.What are you thinking right now?
I'm thinking how to answer these blardy questions. Hungry~

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
Yes, definitely.

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
1.15am

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Free from SONY.

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Yesh. Heehee :p

Who was the last person who text you?
Melvin

TEN LUCKY Person to do this quiz.

1. Yuri
2. Melvin
3. Yipin
4. Weijia
5. Chua
6. Hann Yang
7. Kok Wai
8. Wai Lun
9. Sotong
10. Lex

15. Who is no.2[Melvin] having a relationship with?
Addriana!!!! :p lovely.

16. Is no. 3[yipin] a male or a female?
Somehow, he change according to his mood. =.=" Looks pretty man, eat food faster than cookie monster, but walk like a female model, like to dress like one. Thus, in conclusion, probably fifty fifty mixed gender. [wth]

17. If no.7[kok wai] and no.1[Yuri] get together, would it be good?
Erm, we will never know, will we? I'm imagining...hmm....yea, somehow quite a good combination. Yuri's a beauty, Kok wai a beauty hunter, yea, not bad at all. What do you guys think? good?

18. What is no.1 studying about? [Yuri]
Ehh, she is studying Multimedia design in TOA, considering whether she should change to advertising instead. hmmm.....

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1. Yuri - yesterday night
2. Melvin - midnight
3. Yipin - Late evening
4. Weijia - Late evening
5. Chua - yesterday afternoon
6. Hann Yang - yesterday afternoon
7. Kok Wai - yesterday afternoon
8. Wai Lun - yesterday afternoon
9. Sotong - yesterday afternoon
10. Lex - yesterday afternoon

20. Is no. 4[weijia] single?
Heehee, yeap, still available. But seems like someone has already taken his moves. Weijia, beware... :p

21. Say something about no.2. [ melvin ]
hmm, loves adrianna. wat else? misses adrianna. haha :p
nah, nice person. Able to bring some noice into the class. Joker. Play good basketball. From Malacca. [Hmm] Still have room to improve as a person.

22.What do you think about no. 2[melvin] and no. 6[hannyang] being together?
Together as friends, should be fine. Furthermore, they are from the same high school. If more than that, I really don't want to know.

23. Describe no.9. [Sotong]
Hmm..okkkaaayy...this is tough. Why do i put him as number 9? [gosh] I'm going to be real truthful here. [Sotong, hope you dont get offended, sorry] Erm, Sotong can be real nice sometimes if he wanted to. Somehow, he seldom do that. I just don't understand why he always likes to disturb people. One of the few common things he does, block peoples walk paths, annoys people, etc. Character wise, yea, very confident with himself, good in art, good looking, definitely have many girls falling for him. If he can change a lil abt his character, definitely a great man. Otherwise, I could say, wasted potential.

24. What will you do if no.6[hannyang] and no.7[kok wai] fight?
Definitely will end with a peace fight. Both are very gentle people.

25. Do you like no.8[wailun]?
Yeap, nice person to be with. Not the typical penang people type. He seems to be in love with someone now, i feel the heat.

Adobe Illustrator Artwork - Iron Man

Actual Iron Man Poster

Computer Drawn Image

Iron Man Outline

Completed Coloured Iron Man

My very first computer drawn cartoon character. Spent the whole night on it, and being very satisfied with the final result.

CHANGE

The word "change" really meant a lot to me this time. A lot of things has been changing, from the very outer part of me till deep inside my soul. Had been thinking whether its a good change or a bad change, but its something I want myself to change. Somehow, I don't have the feeling of missing my past. Something I don't mind losing it.

It's been rather a good and interesting 7 weeks in my new environment. Things had been well controlled so far. Probably everything's still good when it's new. Well, I am expecting things to differ by the next semester. Can't really forecast what's up next, but we can only pray for the best.

Felt quite good on writing this post. It's relaxing, even there's still piles of work needed to be completed within the next few days. Yet, taking my time out, spilling words on my blog which has been neglected for the past few days. Anyway, back to the real topic, Change. Did the way i write my post change?

Recently, I had been hanging on the phone with some old friends for quite a long time. Talking regarding me, and things I wanted to share, my thoughts. I knew I'm changing, no longer some one I would call "nice". It's really true from the batman story, "It's either you die as a Hero, or you live long enough to see yourself turning into a villain.". Of course, I wouldn't call myself as a Hero, but I think those who knew me knew I was good, or some of them even said 'too good'. I hardly say no to anyone. And I really those appreciate those who really helped me during times I needed them the most. Even it's just a little, my gratitude was countlessly huge.

I started to hate people now. I started to want to take revenge on people. I started to feel it's unfair of how good people was treated. I won't kill, I won't hit, I don't do crimes and evil, but I hope and curse you to the worst. I started to think what's good left on this place we are all sharing. Call me close minded, I don't care. But I failed in something I wanted to do most, inspiring people to be good. Bad people live better. Am i wrong?

How I looked today, was strokes by different brushes from the past. Bad strokes produce bad drawings. The thing is I am changing, for something that I lost faith in.

Featured Photos of The Month(17/6/2009)

Weird Dreams~

[Ahh], haven't been able to update my blog for quite some time. Just lose the motivation sometimes. Anyway, weird things have been happening to me recently, even in my dreams.

I got a very frightening dream about 2 days ago. Will elaborate later on that on the next post. However, the dream that happened to me today is pretty silly. I think most of us here have at least one person that you hated the most. Some one that you really, really hate, and wish to just kill[not really kill, but you should get what I mean]. Imagine you and the person you hate in a boxing ring,... boxing. [weird~] And no matter how hard you hit him or her, he or she won't fall[god damn it!]. Then, usually in boxing, they have this big red coloured glove. Instead of that, each of us are holding on to a balloon, quite high quality one and punching it to the face, and it still wont blow. It function like the big red coloured glove. [what the hell~~]

Yeap, that's what happened to me. Me and the person I hate the most, fighting in the most silliest wat I could ever think of.

[god damn it] Pretty emo now, since I can't hit her down the ground. [sigh]

Photo Updates

Caught some people going on a date... :p

Lawyer presenting a court session

Jennifer

Chee Kong

Subway - Makan Session